chermayne

Ugly Truth

2009-10-14T15:28:15Z

The ugly truth is this, over-indulgence in gossips makes one ugly.

Hahaha. So random! Just my thoughts.

chermayne @ 2009-10-14T23:21:00

2009-10-14T15:21:19Z

Everything just had to happen today. Dear's first driving test, and our selection of our flat.

Same morning, 1 hour difference.

I got my desired flat after much thoughts, and several rounds of elimination. IT was such a mental torture. It was after shortlisting 60 flats at the start, relooking at it, then relist, then eliminate the selected ones, and then got the final ten before I went for the selection in the early morning. Well, lucky I had suet with me, with her around, I am more assured bcos there is someone with me! I am so thankful to have her around whenever I am making major decisions.

Also, Dar passed his driving at the first testing! WHHEEE! CAR, we will see you soon.

HAHAHAHAH.

Checked, Booked!

2009-09-24T16:55:41Z

Yesh!!! I finally booked my trip to Japan, Osaka. Angie must be laughing her heads off while reading this. This has ding dong quite a while, and I am not heading to Bintan , Angie.HO HO HO.

It took me so long so long and so much time, and effort just to decide a place and goes on a long trip with him. So I feel like I am cloud nine now. Can't stop imagining and thinking about the trip!

So although it is already 12.51 am, I am somehow in my holiday mood.

I had apprehension when I was going to book the trip a hour ago, wondering if it was too early to go off from school, the night before the Hari Raya Haji PH. Well, that said, I still booked it in the end. There were just too many variables taken into consideration.

*JUMPS* I am such a happy bunny now, and I am beaming with joy and excitement just like my children. :)

Opps! MY RIGHT FOOT!

2009-09-15T11:07:39Z

With special request from Angie, I shall update this space more often. :)

I don't update my blog with my pictures, blame it on the post of cyberwellness coordinator, photographs should not reveal the true appearance of the blog owner. But that said, look at the profile pic!
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With so much apprehension for the new term to start, and a yearn to connect with my colleague's daughter who is also my pupil, I decided to show her some skipping techniques. The demonstration turns out to be a Achilles's heel *kwa Kwa Kwa*
I SPRAINED MY ANKLE and i hardly can walk. Handicapped. Here it is,

Wrapped like a super huge dumpling. Anyone keen to taste it? I know I am quite psycho! Or kiss it!

It was a 4 hours spent on seeing a western for a proof, and a sinseh to treat the area. Oh, I screamed when the sinseh was rubbing my foot. *cries a ocean* Pain!

I seriously, do not know how to go school tmr despite I have a two-day medical leave approved from the doctor. Any poll? Tmr is vetting...

September Holidays

2009-09-11T09:29:10Z

Even at the last week of the term, I was totally immersed in work and burnt out. I was exhausted at the last Friday, yet rest was not in the top of list. It was to meet up friends and cheer on the start of the holis.

With the holis beginning, and my every monthly visit of my auntie, I had a mild upwelling of emotions. With so much emotions going through the week, I feel uplifted finally at the end. Things are falling in place, and I am elated.

We finally got a good number in balloting. :) well that said, means we are so gng to live at Punggol. Byebye, easties.

Tomorrow

2009-08-03T14:33:45Z

Tmr will be a better day, isn't it?

House Hunt

2009-05-14T03:19:48Z

If you observe carefully, I have used house and not home. Because I am not able to afford my dream home.

Anyway, 3 months of searching and in vain. I am kinda disheartened and got really tired.

By the way, saw a flat that has the kitchen floor still made of mosaic! Walao. Ancient la! I was still an egg when my parents were using that flooring! I do not know how people sustain themselves in such an environment. Perhaps, contentment will blind a person. There is totally no quality of life! Anyway, yet, they wanna sell it so expensively. Terrible!

Shall continue on house hunting episode!

FUN! SHIOK!

2009-04-25T03:12:50Z

Probably, I had never had so much fun in my life! Broiler room, chilling and playing some games were indeed the way to wind down the hectic week (BOOK CHECK). I didn't even feel like going home yet!

More on the way, I hope! Perhaps, my birthday bash?!! hehehehe

Got me thinking.

2009-04-12T15:38:27Z

I need to take things more seriously, and be happier.

This has always be my philosophy in life! Maybe it is time for some reflection on how I can be more disciplined! It sucks knowing I haven't changed a bit for years! :(

Down

2008-11-18T22:41:27Z

Holidays are here!

For a while, I was telling how I felt that I had friends in school.

But then, to much realization, I guess I could be alone after all. Perhaps, things were not so optimistic the way I see it. Damn.

Well, I shall blog more about this when I have time.

chermayne @ 2008-10-25T23:49:00

2008-10-25T15:50:02Z

to the my dearest

Happy 7th Anniversary.. :)

Reflecting

2008-09-21T13:37:42Z

For a while, I felt really unhappy and inadequate of my profession. For the fact that I neglected my marking and planning, and zoned out infront of the TV for consecutive days. In my subconscious mind, there was an urgent quest for freedom and relaxing. So I zoned out for a couple of days and felt really bad after that...

But now i am all well. :)

agony

2008-08-17T06:42:57Z

3 days of medical leave had me lying in bed all day. And I can't help but to feel bored. I am really bored out with me being sick and not able to taste any single of my favourite food.

AGONYyyyyyyyyyyy and tops of this, I had to plan for next week lessons. More agony.

stifled

2008-06-25T13:04:07Z

That is how i am feeling now. I can't help feeling this way cos I have no space I call my own.

Can you just leave me alone..

Inspired!

2008-06-21T16:32:23Z

There were times when I fantasized about having a classroom of my own. Now, I do not have to anymore!

So I head down with the manly McNie and bought some really nice stuff for the classroom! Hope the kiddies will love them just like i do! :)

check out the pictures.

Bookmarks, trimmers, stickers and charts!! :) love them all.

Sometimes I wish..

2008-06-16T18:08:20Z

that one can be less resentful towards his ___ but it just seem to bridge that relationship and I feel seriously disturbed at this hour.

is there anything i can do?

I hang out with..

2008-05-30T02:26:57Z

These were the people I hang out yesterday. Guess what? These are all teachers.

Stay positive - I am saying this to me. :)

Passion

2008-05-22T14:33:52Z

It is hard to believe how one's passion burnt out so easily within a span of four years. Thus, God has given the indication to me, not to be too emotional with the things around me and I am learning.

Cleaned the classroom, and cleared two bags worth of stuff. Looking at the state of the classroom just reminded me of how reflective it is of the owner. The teacher is the owner of the classroom. the boss of the castle. how the castle is being constructed solely depends on teacher.

I glanced around for nearly 60 mins while waiting and the state of the classroom reflects the emotional state or well-being of the teacher. :) Sad. I feel sad for her. How her passion has died, because she couldn't manage her emotions well enough.

I am seeing her tomorrow again. Seriously, I am keeping a positive outlook, however, I have been filtered with too much negative remarks and I am seriously sick of it. Stop filling me with that.

overwhelmed

2008-05-20T12:16:56Z

I am overwhelmed. Yes. On the first day of school.

The fact that got me waiting in the office for nearly 20 minutes doesn't put me on a good impression of the place. However, the VP was hospitable to bring me around and introduce me to the respective teacher in charge. Hearing that I am taking over some teacher who is leaving didn't leave me in shock, but rather taking over a P2 class. Why has it got to be p2? I wonder. This teacher merely completed the bond and has tendered her resignation. Isn't it sad? she suffered numerous breakdowns and have decided to leave the service. I feel rather sad and was in disbelief how she couldn't manage all these stress.

I observed the class today. Playful and naughty but they can be tamed. I was very apprehensive over the management of the class, how it might be different from my practicum school. but well, I guess there isn't much of a difference anyway after I have seen the class. :) The first thing I said to them, 'IN TWOS' . I shouted and i heard echos. hahahaahhaha. Shiok I saw the change of expression on the boys. Did i mention this? I have only 6 girls out of 30 children in my class. BOYS. Ekk!

Quite happy. Just that I will take some time to get used to the place since I wasn't there for pract!

Great to see you

2008-05-10T07:15:28Z

it is great to see you again. Indeed, knowing you are far better off now make me feel at ease.

All the best, pal.

nostalgic

2008-05-10T06:36:32Z

I have not left the school as yet. However, I am feeling a sense of nostalgic. Perhaps, I am going back to the world of 'survival of the fittest'. The saddest thing is that I am leaving the place where I have seen growth, and fostering of relationships. My comfort zone.

As I recall back the memories of the years that fell behind me, poeple have touched me and have gone in my life. It is time for to review the statement of friendship. Who are the ones to keep and who are the ones to be abandoned? What are the ways I can keep them? These people were gems at this certain point of my life, and am I going to let them go as the time tick swiftly past me. I guess is time for me to make efforts to touch people around me. I am not an angel. but I have been angel to some people at somewhere. :) I must continue to make the effort to strengthen relationships and build new ones very soon.

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when I had reconcile and accepted the fact I have posted out of my comfort zone, there came another piece of news. appeal or not to appeal? Sometimes, I would rather accept the fact that God has planned this out for me. It was my wish to be posted to another school, and God has somehow planned and granted this opportunity. It is a fresh start, isn't it? *pondering* I guess somewhere in me, I have this in mind already. I do not wish to go back. This depicts a bird who has learnt to fly will eventually have to fly out there to see the world right? Staying at one nest is not going to help.

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Happenings after practicum

2008-05-07T16:54:58Z

Loads. I had loads of fun and rest after practicum and this is well-deserved, looking back at the sleepless nights I had. :)

A few days of resting after the last assignment, then off I went for the bangkok trip with mcnies. It was a great graduating trip I guess. I had loads of fun and laughter throughout the 3 days. They were really great pals for traveling. We shopped loads, and meals were never in the itinerary. Although changes were made to the plans, I am quite pleased with it. No complaints!!! I guess, each has to give and take during the trip, and I gladly accepted. It is indeed a nice and happy closure to my uni life. :)

Since my birthday was near, I had surprises after I came back. The girl gang celebrated my birthday and bought me really thoughtful pressies, following by dearie who brought to eat and bought a nice bag! Tee hee! I received flowers too! hur. and that was really sweet, before he told me 'you wanted flowers right so I buy lor' *rolled eyes* then the MCnies were really sweet too! Gave me a big surprise. I was totally unaware of their secret plan!! :) HUR HUR... *GRINS*

this year has brought me several surprises and i thought it is really unexpected and thoughtful of these pple! And thanks to those who send me wishes for bird day! :)

until.... the MOE posting. Another surprise again? I did not expect to be posted to another school, seriously. SHOCKED TO THE MAX! *OH MY GOD* X 10!!! anyway, I have always wanted to be posted to another school cos I do like the one that i went to. I changed my mind considering the pals who will be with me. But since God has planned this way, I think I should gladly accept and be positive towards the change. So I have decided to embrace with positivism! :) I guess it isn't that bad since I am planning to join planet and parkway is just round the corner! Yeah! *THUMBS UP* but I am seriously planning to get a bike license.let me check it out, Don't be surprised to see me on a vespa. Just wind down or wave to me... :) HUR HUR

Storms never end...

2008-03-25T00:20:03Z

Unlike for me, rainbow never comes after the storms. more Storms came over and I am kinda of drowning. Believe me, I hate to feel this way. But my confidence are shattered, and for once, I think perhaps I can't teach.

Trainees are here to learn. Not to get stabbed and becomes the targets of all arrows.

ps.
Is this a curse after I have come back from India? I really wonder, ever since I started thesising, everything just went downhill. I feel low.

but I guess I have got over the time, where I just get manipulated. Well, I have got my fighting spirit back and I want to do well.

my love for desktop

2008-03-15T16:22:55Z

i am using desktop computer right now! I miss using the key board and desktop cos I feel so much connected and relieved of shoulder aches. My study desk is not really that suitable for using lappies. I love the comfort that I do not have strain my arms and shoulders. :) perhaps It is time to change my study desk cos I have used it since I was p4. You calculate its age. :)

Finally, the FYP has ended and I am so relieved. Well, I do not have the ALAS! It is over! feeling, however, the ending of this project needs to have more bang than this. Perhaps, with the string of lesson plans behind, it is hard to accept and reconcile that we are finally free from the evil hands of Missy China and Missy India.Haha. Luckily, although the process of doing the FYP was truly a torture, I am glad that I have great friends in school and outside and of course my family.

alot of feeelings rise when I think of the times I sit infront churning out words to fill in the word requirement. anyway, shall write a long entry abt that when I settled my lps. :)

for those in practicum, gambettte! 5 more weeks. I am counting down too, and to the final showdown of the last assignment. :)

Anger

2008-03-05T14:18:24Z

I have underestimated the power of Anger and I have always succumb to this feeling to do things I have often regret .

So from today, I decided to change. It has been almost 10 years since I set mind to change to a better person. I used to have the belief that one has to change for the better, and that was when I was in the secondary school. I used to be a rather calm person and do not bang my table at all. However, entering teaching, I realized I am beginning to change. And I dislike this change in me, to be not in control. I am losing control of my emotions and that is why I am angry. So I have decided to take control.

I have been grumbling too much and it is really time to channel such feelings and energy into more productive work in life. For this moment, I think I am finding my peace back.

Frankly, a leader should always control his emotions well. And before I decide If i can be one, I have to control and compose myself.

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I have been feeling pressured by people to do things which I do not like. Too much unhappiness bottled up make me feel like I am exploding. And I guess I have exploded on the wrong victims. :) I shall take a rest before moving on.

We will talk soon, on Friday. I will busy in the week ahead. :) take care.